So much confusion, so little time
- Job shopping in Houston in a field I’m not 100% positive I love because it’s what my degree is in and there are openings in the area
- Living in a town with zero friends and loads of social anxiety that regularly impairs my ability to communicate
- Wanting to move to California or anywhere my confused self might fit in better, but teacher salary to cost of living ratio is awful there compared to Texas
- I don’t think I could survive living >3 hours away from my family, and my grandma is practically begging me on her almost-not-really-but-she’s-convinced-herself-it-is death-bed not to move away just yet, but I’m convinced she’ll live to see 110 anyway
- Thinking I might be panromantic asexual or pansexual, knowing that to most people that just means I’m weird, sick or insane and I just need to keep my mouth shut about it
- I feel like I should keep my mouth shut about most things, just bear it until you can move away… but move away I do, and no place ever feels like home, especially not here in my hometown
- I’m 21 and I feel like I’ve wasted 20 years of my life living for other people and I have no idea how to live for myself at this point
- What am I doing with my life?

